Archive for February 2009
One Year Ago
A year ago, I had been given the worst news I think I could have ever had. And now, I sit here a but confused and wondering exactly where life is going to take me.
It seems most of the times nowadays, that everything is normal. I do have to take a pill once a day and be reminded that I have something that can one day potentially be a threat but for now – I’m safe, clean, healthy. It sometimes almost completely forget about it. It’s hard to concentrate and fall trap to such down thoughts at all times, and it’s good to know I can just be me. It’s good to know I can just – relax.
Then – there are times, when I’m reminded and that with a stupid slip in a hot and heavy moment, I can infect my partner.
And I’m no longer able to do it. And my relationship suffers. I trip. I fall to the ground in sort of a shuffled failure. I get up, brush off and continue on.
Running through the day. Like any other.